NEXT: Casey Hallas Studio Opening in Flagstaff
Packing and moving to 1000 sq/ft warehouse space in Flagstaff AZ to set up my painting, music and video studio.
- My new sounds: DJ C-Town (Friday Mix) http://t.co/k1075VWIFr on #SoundCloud,
- My new sounds: DJ C-Town (Rooibus Edit) http://t.co/hNuadSjkwR on #SoundCloud,
- My new sounds: DJ C-Town (Long Mix) http://t.co/W8SZtgbGOv on #SoundCloud,
- My new sounds: C-Town (Pueblo Mix) http://t.co/cyjYcKI2dp on #SoundCloud,
Got a rant coming on…my first memory was going to the courthouse with my mom. I don’t remember the inside at all – just what she said to me standing in the parking lot, “A lot of kids think that something like this is their fault. I don’t want you to think that.” At that moment I decided, consciously, that I WOULD NOT THINK THAT. A 3 and a half year old, deciding what they would think. That’s the moment where I woke up. I was there to take care of my mom, to be a man. That was the moment where I became aware of my humanity.
I did not understand this about myself…but there was something gone, some wrong inside. I’m sure I missed my dad – there was just a feeling like – I wanted to be picked up, held. I stared at the eyes of many adults with the blank expression…asking them with my mind if they understood. Nobody ever really did.
When I started school – I wouldn’t play with other kids. What I would do is walk around the playground by myself. In kindergarden I threw myself out of a swing trying to change the emptiness I felt inside myself. When my mom and the nurse asked me what happened I said in as little words as possible – I fell. The same blank stare.